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Sadguru Sainath Maharaj Ki Jai!!!
Sai Ram Sai Devotees.
I am and was much interested in spiritualism and in transcendence of the self. I use to read many books of philosophy and religious scriptures. Also I would visit many saints and gurus in the search for truth. I was (and am) very much attracted towards J. Krishnamurti’s words. I was experimenting with the awareness of self. And whatever feeling I use to get I let it flower without naming it and only as energy, not judging or theorizing it. The general tendency of human being is trying to run away from the painful psychological and emotional experiences. I do not do that and let the pain or pleasure flower.
Somehow I had respect for Shirdi Sai Baba. Once I tried reading Sai Sat Charitra, and had put down the book thinking it has stories of mere miracles and not much about self transcendence. However respect for Sai Baba was the same. While experimenting with different styles of meditations which I used to do with awareness on self I had started feeling subtle vibrations at holy places like temples and pilgrimages.
It happened that two of my friends decided to come with me to Shirdi, as I had and have this passion to visit pilgrimages. We reached Shirdi and had darshan at the Samadhi temple. It felt nice, however I could not feel much vibrations there, there was a feeling of calmness, serenity and silence.
Gurusthan in Shirdi. (Picture on the right shows how it looked during those days).
Then we moved towards Masjidmai or Dwarkamai. We had the darshan of Dhuni Maa, the holy fire that Baba himself lit up and which burns 24 X 7.
Moved around in the Masjidmai then outside the Majid or Dwarkamai there is a stone on which Sai Baba used to sit. Right hand side picture shows how it was in those days. There were few people placing their head with reverence on this stone. So i decided to stand beside the stone facing Dwarkamai and wait for those few people to be done with their ritual.
As I was standing I felt as if someone was hitting my legs with the sand from behind. I was wearing jeans. I thought, "Who is hetting my calfs with sand?" Then I looked down on the floor and said to myself, "Hey the floor is of the stone, no sand here" and the thought continued, "perhaps there is a small pit of sand behind me, and some child is picking up handfuls of sand and hitting my calfs vigorously in the playing mood." So i turned my neck to have a look at that small pool of sand and that nasty little child.
As my felt on the floor, there was the same stone flooring. The feeling of getting hit by sand sand soon overtook whole of my body.
I had never felt the subtle vibrations so strong, ever. I was getting overwhelmed. We stood in the queue which was reduced to about three devotees. I placed both my hands on the stone and then the head. What great energy I felt! Whole of my vertebrae column was vibrating and I felt energy rushing between my eyebrows. I stayed in that position for about 3 minutes. My friends later told that a devotee wanted to disturb me as there were devotees waiting in the queue. But another devotee stopped him by saying Achi Bhakti kar raha hai( he is doing good devotion). I was like totally drunk, drunk with the divine energy of Baba. I sat besides the stone enjoying the bliss and the energy I was receiving. Both my friends had felt the same energy. We sat there, again and again after short intervals, we put our heads on the holy stone with the same effect. The feeling of that great energy, the presence was felt even when we reached hotel and thereafter for few days. This presence is always felt when ever I go to the holy land Shirdi.
While in Shirdi we had bought Sai Baba’s pictures, the original one with the umbrella. After reaching home I was watching the photo and the energy began to rise within and accumulated between the eyebrows, I kept watching and felt the presence within and without. What energy that is, one thing is sure that such energy cannot be created by us, but can only be received. I feel so thankful to merciful Sai Baba who showers this grace on unworthy child like me. Yes when ever I feel this presence I am sure that it cannot be produced by my efforts.
Once I got impatient and thought why I cannot have this energy every second of the day. I want to be in the same energy always. So I decided that I will sit watching Sai Baba’s picture until I get the self realization. I decided that I will do nothing else but keep watching Sai Baba’s picture. I watched Sai Baba's picture for about an hour. Then, I thought that I should also read Sai Sat Charitra, as the energy felt was too much.
I casually opened the book and began to read. The chapters 18 and 19th, i was reading. These chapters had the story of the author who had the similar thought of impatience. Sai Baba had sent him to chit chat with another devotee Shama. Shama then narrated the story of Mrs. Radhabai Deshmukh, who had decided and gave up food until Sai Baba gave her a mantra.
Then Sai Baba called her and told her his own story where he had said that he had served his Guru for long and his guru had asked him to shave his head and asked for two paise, shaving the head which symbolically means emptying the mind. Those were Shraddha( faith) and Saburi( patience). Here I was struck with the word patience with great impact and also in the second last paragraph the words to some devotee, who was practising Hath-Yoga, He sent word that he should leave off Hath-Yoga practices, sit quiet and wait (Saburi) struck me.
I then left the idea of hath and decided to remember and watch his picture with Saburi. Here I remember the Shree Ramakrishna Paramhansha’s words that, how could one who think about consciousness get unconscious. So how can one who watches the picture of consciousness incarnate get unconscious. I still meditate on Baba’s picture and feel this consciousness within and without. I was also very much against the miracles.
There is a very good book Meher Baba on Sai Baba. In which Meher Baba had explained that to perform miracles for the awakened ones is not a big deal( here I am writing as how I have remembered or interpreted not exactly what is written) they perform miracles so that they can attract devotees and give them what they want them to give. And also there is nothing like miracles. Our small mind when it sees something happening, which it is beyond it’s grasp it calls it miracle. And nothing was and is beyond Sai Baba’s grasp.
For instance television, or phone or radio or even switching of the light bulb would be termed as miracles by the people living in 15th century.
In the similar manner many times when I would feel troubled and casually read Sai Sat Charitra. I have opened the chapters that would get my agitated mind and lead it to peace, the message required for that particular time always pops up during the reading.
Other great thing about this blessed book the invaluable gift to us by Sai Baba is that even holding it makes me feel the presence.
Once I was in deep emotional pain. I felt that the very roots of my being were shaken and I choose to get in this painful experiences rather than avoiding them. The pain was deep and I thought I would go mad by this painful experience. My body was like paralyzed by the emotional pain and I was lying on the bed. At that time I put Sai Sat Charitra on my heart I felt much energy going from the book in my heart and balanced it.
The pain was there but the energy to sustain was received. On another instance I had gone to meditate in a group conducted by a well known guru (here I am not in anyway trying to write against that or any other Guru). There were about 15,000 people mediating. The energy went so high that people began to scream and laugh and cry. The energy within me was also going high and I thought that my brain will not be able to take such energy. I had taken Sai Sat Charitra with me. I held it and all the energy was diverted to the place between the eyes.
The energy was well directed by holding this precious gift by Sai Baba. I have also bought a shawl from Sai Sansthan Shop in Shirdi and get touched by Samadhi of Sai Baba. The shawl when placed on my body also makes me feel this presence.
I had this desire of touching and placing my head on the articles used by Sai Baba. Last time I was I Shirdi and was visiting a house of a devotee of Baba, when Baba was still in the human form. The ancestor of the devotee suddenly stood up and started showing me the articles used by Baba, the Kafni, the footwear, which were gifted by Sai Baba to his forefather devotee. Not only this, he insisted that I hold them for a while. There were devotees in queue before me and after me, none he asked to hold them but me. Sri SadGuru Sainath Maharaj ki Jai.
Also Baba has blessed me with a wonderful son who loves to repeat Baba, Baba,Baba…..