A gift beyond our comprehension.
Sai SatCharitra, when it was first given me to read, I had not gone into it deeply. Matter of fact is that I did not read more than two chapters at that time. It pains me even as I write this.
During those times I was much into philosophy, and wanted clear explanations, to the mind, or rather looking for what appealed to the mind. After reading a couple of chapters, the intellectual mind did not find it appealing, thought to be mere stories with hyped up miracles.
Many of the intellectual minded people might find it same today. But the book has much more than mere intellect of the thought, which can be found in millions of books in libraries and even in the weekly magazines and daily newspapers.
Sai Satcharitra is a wealth given by Shirdi Sai Baba, and is blessed by Grace. It has the most amazing thing that only few Masters like Sai Baba can give. It has the grace, which is beyond any level of intelligence. The grace that can clean and purify our minds, the grace that attracts us towards the highest.
Every time I read it, it gives different when meaning. Each chapter when read at different times brings about the calmness, with the meaning relevant for that time. Though the book is most of the time pointing to the timelessness, it seems to guide me, with utmost love and care that only rare book can render.
In emotionally and mental disturbance of a greater intensities, even hugging to the book have helped a lot. Only hugging the book in those intense moments, when one does not even feels like reading, the grace from the book gives solace and soothing effects on heart and head.
At the time of reading though it has been read again and again, there is a sense of newness every time. One does not feel anything repetitive. And it always gives a feeling of togetherness, with Sai Baba. It's like living with Him. If we go everyday and meet him, it is always going to be great. The love and grace never becomes stale. There is always newness in it.
The sacred book is not read with the aim to learn something, but only for the feeling of grace and love felt through it, yet it never ceases to give appropriate directions. And one feels it is all with Sai Baba’s direction and grace one is drawn to write this. One feels it is Baba’s work His grace will guide whoever needs to read it.
Even the word I seem to be heavy so the word one is used, because the I is not there. Only the grace is there. If I is there, that I would be much thinking over what is being written, what will the readers say, what will the intellectual people say. I is always surrounded with fears, and ifs. Even while reading the great blessed book Sai SatCharitra, it is better that the I is absent. The I with the wants, the I looking for directions, the I looking for the learning.
It’s best when the I is absent and only the grace of Baba is felt, the grace is allowed to work on mind rather than mind working to find the meanings.
The mind or I can never fathom the grace, the grace has to be allowed to work on mind. As Baba has indicated it requires a calm mind to grasp the grace. And only the grace can calm the mind. When the mind or I is trying to get calm it can never be.
We have to leave it to the grace of Sai Baba and allow His grace to work. It is very difficult for the mind or I to leave everything to Sai Baba. It might say I have left everything to Baba, and immediately after saying it starts all it’s effort for securing its identity, gathered from society.